“Our environments just destroyed our hopes and dreams”
SL (undated 2016): “They ain’t never care bout me, about me/So why should I give two fucks about them, about them./They ain’t never care about meee/So why should give two fucks about them.” In my nigga KT voice. It’s crazy how much talent be behind these doors. Singers, rappers, artist, just to name a few. Our environments just destroyed our hopes and dreams due to a lack of opportunity.
HW: I bet. Everyone has their gift, abilities, and talents…it must be so hard to think of that going to waste. I think about that with you a lot, actually. You’ve got talents, you’re a great writer, you have a lot of good insights about human nature, and you’re really smart. I think that’s definitely going to waste in jail (less now because of the blog—lol). By “environments” did you mean just in jail or outside of jail as well?
SL: Both Elle both. And my talent ain’t extraordinary. And what makes me so smart? Everybody say that but to me, I do dumb shit. I know I do.
HW: I know you wrote this a long time ago, but I’m curious. You’ve called yourself wise before, a good thinker. Now you’re saying that you do dumb shit. What do you mean by that? Why do you say that? Is there a contradiction between how you think and how you act?
SL: Yea there’s a contradiction between how I think and how I act. IC I acted exactly how I think I’d be dead a long time ago. I’m wise cuz I know the difference between my actions and my thoughts, and why.
My motto is show the people what they wanna see. Put up a mirror. People love they image in the mirror. They will look at it all day. So I act like others but think like me. Until I get around people who think like me I gotta act like others or I’ll be isolated, last out. Alone. And right now I’m not ready for that yet. When I’m a full grown man with my own family my own income and shit like that then it’s different. I want need people. I’m still growing Vic. I’m not at my best yet.